highland.heather

     This past month has been hell.   I was in the hospital 2 times in the past month.   Now my brother is there with a quadrupal bypass.   I really hate this time of year :(  .   All the bad things that happen this time of year shadow the good things.   The 19th will be the anaversery of my fathers death and in the next 2 weeks after that will be the anaversery of the death of 3 other people that meant alot to me.  On Christmas day will be the anaversery of my grandfathers death.   I am looking ahead to January.   Maybe things will be better then.
     One thing I realized in my last stay in the hospital all the drama on the net is not worth my health.   So fair warning if anyone thinks they are going to get me worked up for their own amusement prepair to be put on ignore and forgotten about.   It is like the old saying goes those that would make you cry are not worthy of your tears and those that ar worthy of them would never make you cry.  
     I have had a few people that were very important to me at one time move on from me and thought it hurt at the time I am still here it did not kill me.   I am coming to realize that perhaps they were not as important to me as I thought they were.   They are gone but my life goes on.   Now it is time for me to move on away from those useless wishes that they would come back to me.   I will someday remember the good they did me without crying about the loss of them and who knows maybe someday I will be able to think about them and have no emotion at all.  
     I have lost people i cared about before and I will lose more I am sure.   There is a saying God does not give you more then you can handle.   I hope that is true because I have came very close to breaking a few times this year.
     Here is to moving on to better places may everyone find their own happy in their new places.